I wish medical school and my clinical rotations were the most stressful thing in my life. I talk to my classmates, and they’re stressed out and worried. I get it. I don’t begrudge them understandably feeling stressed out about starting their clinical rotations, or setting up elective rotations, or trying to figure out what specialty they want to get into, or if they can get into a residency program.
I have those concerns. I wanted to apply to all of these wonderful residency sites I have been researching. Well, now I have two exes who want to fight me even leaving the county. Yippee. How do I make a match list with one site in the area? I wanted to be a crackerjack student on my surgery rotations. I was planning on having my knots down, relearning anatomy well, looking up the details on the more common procedures I would be doing. Sigh. Not so much.
However, two of the four people on my rotation didn’t even take the required scrub class before the rotation started. The other one was late the first day. So, I guess even as a single mother with a lot going on right now, I am hanging in there.
I remember feeling out of step with my classmates already. They would tell me they “didn’t have the time” to get involved with the extracurricular clubs and volunteer activities. I had a classmate tell me she couldn’t care for her own dog (??!!) and had to give it to a family member when she was preparing for boards. Now, it’s a gulf between us. It’s OK, I still have a great relationship with most of my classmates, and we can empathize or at least sympathize with each other.
I am also lucky that I have an awesome resident I am working with, and the attendings on this rotation are treating this as an extended holiday weekend. So, I have today and the weekend off to try to sort out my other stresses. Like getting my wireless finally hooked up, which was supposed to happen yesterday. And get my kids transferred to the appropriate schools. Oh, and finishing unpacking might be nice eventually. Lighting a few fireworks on Sunday wouldn’t be bad, either. And hey, maybe I can find my Ethicon knot tying kit in the boxes and practice a few knots, too.